So, the adorable younger boyfriend - although we chat on messenger and he always says hi as soon as I sign in, (is this how they define a relationship in the new millennium?) - has not been in town in a while. Not that I don't like this whole talking thing BUT I want a visit. I want to get fucked like mad. I am looking for trouble. Do you have any trouble for me?
So, I question whether this whole - I will stay in the relationship even if I am not crazy in love because it is ok and seems better then the alternative - thing is really denying myself a real and perhaps better shot at my life. Or maybe all men that we love turn into bullshit babies as soon as they get married and then you have spent lots of money on a divorce and a second wedding...
I want to put on a pretty skirt and have it lifted up...I want to do something, anything...I want a cocktail out of the house and with flirting...I want my pretty panties pulled down my legs...I want to run down the street at 4a.m. laughing with girlfriends...I want to kiss and remember that I like it still...I want to be naked and sweaty and crazy.
I am restless, utterly beyond restless, tonight.
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